2020 has become a year where you should expect the unexpected. As our emotions have fluctuated more in the last year than they probably have most of our lives, we have begun to realize our reliance on God more and more. If you would have told me that I would do my last day of high school in the middle of March, that a global pandemic would be the topic of the year, that I signed up to do a 3 month training camp in GA, or a multitude of other things, I think I would’ve laughed and called you crazy. Saying goodbye for a trip has never really been that hard for me. Whether it was going to Haiti for two week or across the country to visit family, I had confidence that the goodbye would be worth it and I would be back in no time. This goodbye is a little bit more long term and I'm not dragging anyone along with me, which I have realized makes it quite a bit harder. I think Winnie the Pooh said it best, “How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” I truly have been blessed with the best family, friends, and community.

But, with all that said, the day is finally here. I officially leave tomorrow for training camp. As I say goodbye, squeeze all my belongings into a pack, and prepare myself mentally, I feel full of joy, excitement, a touch of sadness, and an ounce of anxiety. Joy and excitement because IT'S FINALLY HERE! Oh how I have longed for this day, for years and years. Sad to say goodbye to my home and the people that make it home. Anxiety for the unknown. I know that God has his hand on me and that I have all of you praying on my behalf. What confidence that gives me!

To all the ones who have helped me get here; my parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, Jacob, friends, bosses, coworkers, and everyone in between, THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I wouldn't be who I am without each of you. You have raised me to be independent of the world, but fully dependent on Jesus. You have taught me what love actually looks like. Thank you for loving me unconditionally and fully supporting my decisions. I will be blogging while I'm away, so stay tuned! I can not wait to take you all on this journey with me! 

All the love in the world, 

Kaylin :)

songs of the week:

Praise Will Be My Song by Bryan & Katie Torwalt

This is Where I Belong by Housefires

Open Space by Housefires

The Wick by Housefires

Not Finished Yet by Chris Renzema 

Fountain by Chris Renzema

Man of Your Word by Maverick City Music

(I know there are a lot of songs but they are SO worth the listen)